John challenged Me to draw a Monkey fishing
29 June 2009
17 June 2009
Tom was the stableman’s apprentice; he lived in the stables and slept in the hay stack where all the hunting dogs slept. The stableman found him years ago among a new litter of dogs and gathered that one of the bitches who recently lost a pup had stealthily picked the baby up from around the castle main gate when some nobles where returning from a hunt, he figured she was probably nursing him for three moons before his teething started to aggravate her enough for her to decide that her human should be aware of his presence.
The Princess met Tom shortly after her seventh birthday, at that point her parents deemed her old enough to leave the palace proper on her own as long as she stays inside the castles grounds. She took a likening to the stables and would come down from the palace almost every day to pet the animals in her quiet and serious manner.
Shortly afterwards her parents died, and about a month after that Tom stumbled upon her in a shadowy corner of the stable quietly hugging a sheep, touched by how sad and lost she looked he impulsively offered her to come down to the stables at night to sleep in the hay stack with him and the dogs. The princess accepted and ever since then Tom had taken it upon himself to protect her and cheer her up. he took special pride in knowing that he was among the very few who could put a smile upon her face with his outrageous antics.
The princes met old-bear Arkadidov when she was investigating the castles' vast underground library and archives.
No one really knew how old Arkadidov was, it is said that in his youth he devoured the favorite scholar of a distant queen and as punishment she cursed him with an insatiable hunger for linguistics. Over the years he had managed to teach himself to speak, read and write in all the languages know to men and several of the lesser know as well. It came to the point where one of the princesses great grandfathers invited him to be the royal archive in return to any and all past and future documents in the possession of the kingdom,
naturally he accepted.
Arkadidov took a begrudging liking to the princes for he was an odd old bear that did not like to sing or brawl or shout - in fact he did not like any noise at all; and she was an odd little princess that rarely smiled, never lied and never joked. That suited Arkadidov and he would allow her to tag along for hours on end, silently holding a light for him while he cataloged and translated ancient script up and down the dusty catacombs of the library.
Once upon a time, in a land not-so-far-away by today’s standards,
there lived a beautiful princess that could speak with snakes.
She had hair as black as a starless night and eyes as green as newly sprouted wheat on a lazy summer day. When she was born her parents gave her a name, but she had long forgotten it for they had died when she was young and everyone else just called her ‘princess’.
The snake king however (who was a childhood acquaintance) named her Loah-Sagoor - “Loah” for short,
which means ‘closed mouth’ in one of the languages which snakes speak for she never smiled and rarely spoke.
A silent princess was she.
I believe it's the motherboard but I don't want to chance buying a new one only for it to fry again because the power supply is the real culprit. So I'll have to get a friend to look at it to try to figure out the exact extent of the damage.
anyways, this means that I've gone for about a week and a bit without internet connection and let me tel you - it sucks.
I don't know the news.
I can't call my mom on skype.
I can't chat with my friends on google chat.
I can't access my Email.
I can't buy stuff for cheaper online, I can't even compare prices.
I can't look up words, or historical events, or people, or quotes, or movies.
or anything really.
I hear about something interesting and want to know more about - and I can't!
my knowledge level stays the same, aka unsatiated.
it's a stupefying experience (pun intended).
And to all those commie hippies that think that the internet is of the devil and that I would ever actually enjoyed my forced exile *sputter!*
let me tell you, at no point - what so ever - did I find myself enjoying my "lack of technology".
I did not find myself more calm, I did not find myself more happy or communicative or "free".
as far as I'm concerned, going without internet is as wholesome and freeing as going without penicillin.
Modern. Technology. Rocks.
This means that I now have time to hang out with my friends again, and so a couple of days ago I got caught up with my buddies John, Ben & Mike and of course our conversation eventually, naturally, turned to the concept of holodecks in the Star Trek universe and how underutilized this technology is, how unrealistic it is that the pop-culture surrounding the holodecks is underdeveloped and even non-existent and how it would be totally different if such a thing existed in the real world, aka holo-stars/celebrities, holoprograms as high art, abstract experiences in the holodeck, etc.
such is the state of my existence...
hmmmmm... so cool.
well, here it is:
Oh, I almost forgot,
I met Ben, John and Mike at Marty’s theater on Vashion Island for a movie night,
Saw a great Tarantino sponsored movie called Sukiyaki Western Django, you should check it out.
Fear not! with the help of yours truly and the mighty Ctrl+F function, you can now find all the kismet blocks that come with the standard UT3 Editor!
Behold! the awesomeness...
RMK Kismet And:
New Action > Actor > Actor Factory
New Action > Actor > Actor Factory Ex
New Action > Actor > Assign Controller
New Action > Actor > Attach to Actor
New Action > Actor > Cause Damage
New Action > Actor > Cause Damage Radial
New Action > Actor > Change Collision
New Action > Actor > Destroy
New Action > Actor > Get Distance
New Action > Actor > Get Velocity
New Action > Actor > Heal Damage (UT)
New Action > Actor > Set Damage Instigator
New Action > Actor > Set Material
New Action > Actor > Set SkeletalMesh
New Action > Actor > Set StaticMesh
New Action > Actor > Teleport
New Action > AI > Abort Move
New Action > AI > Add Named Bot
New Action > AI > Freeze
New Action > AI > MakeNoise
New Action > AI > Move To Actor (Latent)
New Action > AI > Set Visibility Modifier
New Action > AI > Start Firing At
New Action > AI > Stop Firing
New Action > Camera > Depth Of Field
New Action > Camera > Look At
New Action > Camera > Motion Blur
New Action > Camera > Play Camera Animation
New Action > Camera > Set Camera Target
New Action > Camera > Stop Camera Animation
New Action > Cinematic > Control Movie Texture
New Action > Cinematic > Dummy Weapon Fire
New Action > CustomChar > Set Character Part
New Action > CustomChar > Set Character Profile
New Action > DemoGame > Camera Shake
New Action > DemoGame > Drum Hit
New Action > DemoGame > Set PhysAnimTestActor State
New Action > DemoGame > Set Wheel Particles
New Action > DemoGame > Velocity Loop
New Action > Display Chapter Title
New Action > Event > Activate Remote Event
New Action > Event > Attach To Event
New Action > Flock > Kill Flock
New Action > Level > Change Level Visibility
New Action > Level > Commit Map Change
New Action > Level > Prepare Map Change
New Action > Level > Server Travel
New Action > Level > Stream Travel
New Action > Level > Stream Multiple Levels
New Action > Level > Trace
New Action > Level > Wait for Levels to be visible
New Action > Material Instance > Set ScalarParam
New Action > Material Instance > Set TextureParam
New Action > Material Instance > Set VectorParam
New Action > Math > Add Float
New Action > Math > Add Int
New Action > Math > Cast To Float
New Action > Math > Cast To Int
New Action > Math > Divide Float
New Action > Math > Divide Int
New Action > Math > Multiply Float
New Action > Math > Multiply Int
New Action > Math > Subtract Float
New Action > Math > Subtract Int
New Action > Misc > Console Command
New Action > Misc > Delay ~ Hotkey: D + LMK
New Action > Misc > Finish Sequence ~ Hotkey: ] + LMK
New Action > Misc > Force Feedback
New Action > Misc > Force Garbage Collection
New Action > Misc > Force Material Mips Resident
New Action > Misc > Gate
New Action > Misc > Log ~ Hotkey: L + LMK
New Action > Misc > Timer
New Action > Misc > Unlock Achievement
New Action > Misc > Unlock Char
New Action > Mission Selection Reference
New Action > Object List > IsIn ObjectList
New Action > Object List > Modify ObjectList
New Action > Object Property > Get Property
New Action > Objective > Change Node Status
New Action > Objective > Change Orb Base
New Action > Objective > Return CTF Flag
New Action > Objective > Return Onslaught Orb
New Action > Objective > Set Bots Must Complete
New Action > Particles > Set Particle Param
New Action > Pawn > Enter Vehicle
New Action > Pawn > Exit Vehicle
New Action > Pawn > Give Inventory
New Action > Pawn > Infinite Ammo
New Action > Pawn > Pawn Anim
New Action > Pawn > Possess Pawn
New Action > Pawn > Use Hoverboard
New Action > Physics > Set BlockRigidBody
New Action > Physics > Set Physics
New Action > Physics > Set RigidBodyIgnoreVehicles
New Action > Set Variable > Bool
New Action > Set Variable > Float
New Action > Set Variable > Int
New Action > Set Variable > Object
New Action > Set Variable > String
New Action > Set Variable > Vector
New Action > Single Player Mission
New Action > Single Player Mission (ROOT)
New Action > Sound > Apply Sound Node
New Action > Sound > CrossFadeMusicTracks
New Action > Sound > Play FaceFX Anim
New Action > Sound > Play Sound
New Action > Sound > Play Sound UI
New Action > Sound > Set Music Track
New Action > Spawn Projectile
New Action > Story > Add Modifier Card
New Action > Story > AdjustPersistentKey
New Action > Story > Use Modifier Card
New Action > Switch > Delayed
New Action > Switch > Random
New Action > Switch > Ranged
New Action > Switch > Switch
New Action > Team > Change Team
New Action > Team > Get Team Number
New Action > Toggle > Toggle ~ Hotkey: T + LMK
New Action > Toggle > Toggle AffectedByHitEffects
New Action > Toggle > Toggle Cinematic Mode
New Action > Toggle > Toggle Dynamic Channel
New Action > Toggle > Toggle God Mode
New Action > Toggle > Toggle Hidden
New Action > Toggle > Toggle HUD
New Action > Toggle > Toggle Input
New Action > Tutorials > Set Tutorial Message
New Action > Tutorials > Timed Tutorial Message
New Action > UI > Close Scene
New Action > UI > Open Scene
New Action > Vehicle > Activate Rocket Boosters
New Action > Vehicle > Attach Tow Cable
New Action > Vehicle > Hoverboard Spin Jump
New Action > Vehicle > Self Destruct
New Action > Voice/Announcements > Play Announcement
New Action > Voice/Announcements > Play Voice Message
New Action > Voice/Announcements > Toggle Announcements
New Matinee ~ Hotkey: M + LMK
New Turret Track
New Condition > Comparison > Compare Bool ~ Hotkey: Ctrl + B + LMK
New Condition > Comparison > Compare Float ~ Hotkey: Ctrl + F + LMK
New Condition > Comparison > Compare Int ~ Hotkey: Ctrl + I + LMK
New Condition > Comparison > Compare Object
New Condition > Counter > Float Counter
New Condition > Counter > Int Counter ~ Hot key: X + LMK
New Condition > Do Tutorial
New Condition > Has Inventory
New Condition > Has Persistent Key
New Condition > Is Carrying Flag
New Condition > Is Link Setup Active
New Condition > Logged In
New Condition > Using Weapon
New Condition > Onslaught Node State
New Condition > Same Team
New Condition > Server Type
New Condition > Single Player Mission Check
New Condition > Switch > Switch Class
New Condition > Switch > Switch Object
New Condition > UTIsConsole
New Condition > UTWeapon Test
New Variable > Bool ~ Hot key: B + LMK
New Variable > External Variable ~ Hotkey: E + LMK
New Variable > Float > Float ~ Hotkey: F + LMK
New Variable > Float > Random Float
New Variable > Int > Int ~ Hotkey: I + LMK
New Variable > Int > Random Int
New Variable > Matinee Data
New Variable > Name
New Variable > Named Variable ~ Hotkey: N + LMK
New Variable > Object > Character
New Variable > Object > Object ~ Hotkey: O + LMK
New Variable > Object > Object List
New Variable > Object > Object Volume
New Variable > Object > Player ~ Hotkey: P + LMK
New Variable > Sound > Music Track
New Variable > Sound > Music Track Bank
New Variable > String ~ Hotkey: S + LMK
New Variable > Union
New Variable > Vector
New Event > Actor > Destroyed
New Event > Actor > Take Damage
New Event > AI > See Enemy
New Event > DemoGame > Input
New Event > Game Ended
New Event > Level Beginning
New Event > Level Loaded And Visible
New Event > Level Reset
New Event > Level Startup ~ Hot key: Ctrl + S + LMK
New Event > Misc > Console Event
New Event > Objective > Countdown Node Succeeded
New Event > Objective > Flag Event
New Event > Objective > Mined Ore
New Event > Objective > Objective Completed
New Event > Objective > Onslaught Node Event
New Event > Pawn > Death
New Event > Pawn > Get Inventory
New Event > Pawn > Line Of Sight
New Event > Pawn > See Death
New Event > Physics > Constraint Broken
New Event > Physics > Mover
New Event > Physics > Projectile Landed
New Event > Physics > Rigid Body Collision
New Event > Physics > Touch
New Event > Physics > Touch Status
New Event > Pickup Status Change
New Event > Play Core Destruction
New Event > Player > Player Spawned
New Event > Remote Event
New Event > Sequence Activated ~ Hotkey: [ + LMK
New Event > Skipped Cinematic
New Event > Turret Status Changed
New Event > Turrets > Turret Spawned
New Event > Used
New Event > Vehicle Factory Event
New Comment ~ Hotkey: C
New Comment (Wrap)
and of course there's always the Kismet User Guide
I think this phenomenon happens because of 1) Media glorification, i.e. television shows like Dexter and Monk, and 2) more importantly, a fundamental misunderstanding of what mental diseases' are, the grief they cause, and the severity of the effects on the everyday function of a person that is afflicted by them.
I came to this observation around the 2nd time a person used the term OCD to describe themselves in an offhand and even pretentious way - as if suffering from a mental disorder is something to be proud of.
People, understand, it's not cute to be crazy, and it is certainly not fun.
If you have an admirable capacity for little details and/or the ability to concentrate for long hours on a difficult task, it means you're "focused", or possibly "dedicated"; you're not OCD.
if you were OCD, you'd probably have to stop everything you're doing (no matter how important) every 60 minutes (on the dot) to go to the bathroom, clean it with the bleach and the brand new cleaning utensils you buy every day in order to - then wash your hands in the correct sequence (i.e. ritual), after that you'd go back to your cubicle to symmetrically rearrange all of your desk and possibly the desk of the guy in the next cubicle (whether he likes it or not), and if any of the above is not preformed perfectly, you'd need to do it all over again (much to the annoyance of your boss and co-workers).
All this out of a terrible sense of need/dread that if you don't do these things something horrible will happen.
So you're basically constantly living on the edge of fear, staving your terrors by means of expensive, irrational, and meticulous rituals that hinder your quality of life and make others ether pity you or piss them off.
here, I've made it easier for you:
(Excerpt from Wikipedia)
Obsessive-compulsive disorder (OCD): is a mental disorder most commonly characterized by intrusive, repetitive thoughts resulting in compulsive behaviors and mental acts that the person feels driven to perform, according to rules that must be applied rigidly, aimed at preventing some imagined dreaded event; however, these behaviors or mental acts are not connected to the imagined dreaded event.
... In severe cases, it affects a person's ability to function in everyday activities. The disorder is often debilitating to the sufferer's (and his/her family's) quality of life. Also, the psychological self-awareness of the irrationality of the disorder can be painful. For people with severe OCD, it may take several hours a day to carry out the compulsive acts.
(Excerpt from: lexington-on-line.com)
Obsessions are thoughts, often intrusive and upsetting.
They often come in the form of Anxiety about thoughts or rituals over which you feel you have little control.
Obsessions are to be distinguished from ruminations or worries about routine life issues such as finances, children or job security. Some examples of obsessions in OCD may be thoughts or mental images of an upsetting nature like violence, vulgarities, harm to self or harm to others.
Obsessions may be of special numbers, colors, or single words or phrases . . . sometimes even melodies.
Examples - Obsessions with:
Germs, Dirt, Doubt, Order, Symmetry, Repugnant Sexual Thoughts, Repugnant Religious Thoughts, Repugnant Images, Horrific Images, Violent Images, Fear of Forgetting, Fear that a Mistake Will Harm a Loved One.
Compulsions are behaviors.
A compulsion is a repetitive behavior in response to an urge. It is difficult to stop this behavior. Obsessions provoke compulsions. Examples include washing the hands too many times, showering too frequently or washing things about the home like clothes or floors or even groceries.
How much is too much? Many experts agree that engaging in more than an hour a day raises suspicions of OCD. Compulsions are often performed repetitively and in some stereotyped or ritualistic fashion. You may be bothered by urges to perform rituals like repeatedly turning off and on a light switch until it 'feels right'.
Examples - Compulsions to repeatedly:
Wash Hands, Shower, Check Locks, Check Stoves, Touch Things, Count Items, Order Things, Clean Things, Perform Silly Rituals Until It 'Feels' Right.
For more official definitions:
The International Classification of Diseases and Related Health Problems (ICD):
The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders 4the edition (DSM-IV):
it was a great vacation - War-with-Hamas-braking notwithstanding;
I slept, I met the really important friends, I ate the best food in the world, it was great.
The only truly shitty part (from a vacation point of view), is that from the 3 weeks I was home, I got to see my brother Adam a whooping two days (because of the aforementioned War-with-Hamas). but I got to speak to him on the phone a lot and he asked me to write him and send him funny stuff and music and such, you know, keep in ouch.
so here I am, after much passing of time, once again reviving my Live-Journal... journal.
This one's for you bro :)